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“I LOVE you NO more”
Verse 1
That night you took your friends over me again, I was sad, to see, my feelings
meant nothing , 2 u, I
don’t love love love
love love love love love love love love you , no more (love you, no more) (2
backgrounds)
Hook: I’m done, I’m through, You’ll Loose, Get Out and go!
Verse 2
That night, you went , to the bar, with your friends again, am I, I to blind,
to see, that you don’t
respect me I don’t love you no
more (repeat go up on no more just like the love) (love you, no more), in
background)
Hook: I’m done, I’m through, You’ll Loose, Get Out and go! (whoohooo?)
Bridge
When your friends are
not, not around, you treat me like a precious gem, Why is it that you take your
friends over me, or is
it that your embarrass to be with me
You want your Henessey, drinking senslessly, doing stupid things that will get you locked up quickly
(talk it like hook) You’re a liar and a coward face reality
I gained a little
weight, let me be or work with me, you wanted some cushion, now you acting
scared,
behind close doors, I’m
all of that, but I’m done being your pillow, like Ms Badu said, you
better, you better, you better, you
better, you better call
Tyrone(I love, no more) ( you, in the background) or Ernest here’s the
phone, I’m beautiful with u or
without u, I love you no
more…….(Im done!)
4x I’m done, I’m through, You’ll Lose, Get Out and go! I love you, no more, no more
"DJ Make ‘Em Move"
9 o’clock shower
10 o’clock hair and make up
11 o'clock on the road
12am we hit the club Uh oh
Uh Oh, Uh Oh, Uh Oh
Verse 1
(Walk- backgrounds) in the club, (to-backgrounds) have some fun, (he-
backgrounds) grab
my hand a first,(with-backgrounds) a gentle touch (dj make em a move)
(Ask) – could he get
my name, (Lisa) –was what I told him, (I) said I hard day, he said, let me
make that go away
He touch my thighs, forgot my worries
He touched my waist, forgot my worries
He held me close, forgot my worries
On the dance floor, left my worries (go up on the note)
9 o’clock shower
10 o’clock hair & make up
11 o’clock on the road
12am we hit the club Uh oh
(4x) Step like a star (step like a star) show the people who you are
Uh Oh
(4x)Tear the dance floor up, DJ make em move (DJ make em move, DJ make em move)
Verse 2
After the dance he bought me a drank, Talk for a bit about my day, he ask for
the number, I said ok, my girls are tripping cuz
he’s in my space (talk that), I said to him, thank you, for helping me, relax
my mind, I had a long day, and you took that
away, I wish I could spend the night with you
He touch my thighs, forgot my worries
He touched my waist, forgot my worries
He held me close, forgot my worries
On the dance floor, left my worries (go up on note)
9 o’clock shower (ho)
10 o’clock hair and make up (ho)
11 o’clock on the road (ho)
12am we hit the club Uh oh (ho)
Hook (4x) Step like a star show the people who you are (talk over Anthony with sexy tone)
Uh Oh
(4x)Tear the dance floor up, DJ make em move
Bridge
Put Your Hands Up, Every Body Stand Up and Put your hands up
Dj Make Em Move
Ladies Shake It Fast, Fellows Do it smooth
Hook
(4x) Step like a star show the people who you are (talk over Anthony with sexy tone)
Uh Oh
(4x)Tear the dance floor up, DJ make em move
“You Caught Me”
He makes me want to say ooooooooo, you caught me, oooooo, you caught me, odododododododododod, you caught me, again
Verse 1
Sitting here on the porch, ready to write a letter, for the one of choice, and
that’s my baby, that’s my baby. Im watching the cars go by, hoping you would
stop by my place
He makes me want to say oooooooo, you caught me, oooooo, you caught me, odododododododododod, you caught me, again
Verse 2
11pm there you are, pulling up to get your lady. Many people may think im crazy
but, I don’t give a dam, I don’t give a dam. You’re here now for a min,
you’ll live me in a few hours I aint down, I be around carry
He makes me want to say ooooooooo, you caught me oooooo, you caught me, odododododododododod, again
He was just so sweet and nice, I did not know about his wife, he was very clean and tight, I do not know about his other life, he bought me things with no worry in sight, I did not know he had two kids with her… You told me you were not married…This was the second time I was played I aint down, I be around carry
ooooooooo, oooooo, odododododododododod, again
“Up”
(up, up, up, up)
4x Put your drinks down and get your azz up – up…… (2x up, up, up, up - sing)
4 Clap your hands, clap your hand, clap your hands, come on clap your hands
4 Stomp you feet, stomp your feet, stomp your feet come on stomp your feet
Fellows - grab a lady and pull her close, pop it girl, make that booty work
Ladies – turn around, and shake it fast, can you fellows, can you handle it YES!
2x Put your drinks down and get your azz up – up……(2x up, up, up, up - sing)
3x Jump around and act a fool up, up, up….
Let’s try this again
4 Clap your hands, come on clap your hand, clap your hands, come on clap your hands
4 Stomp you feet, come on stomp your feet, stomp your feet, come on stomp your feet
Papa’s - grab a lady and pull her close, pop it girl make that booty work
Senorita’s – turn around, and shake it fast, can you pape’s, can you handle it Si!
2x Put your drinks down and get your azz up – up……(2x up, up, up, up - sing)
3x Jump around and act a fool up, up, up….
Last time…
4 Clap your hands, clap your hand, clap your hands, come on clap your hands
4 Stomp you feet, stomp you feet, stomp your feet, come on stomp your feet
2x East Coast, West Coast, Up North, Down South, International World Wide Put your hands up in the sky (repeat)
Pick your drinks up and sit your azz down
"SLEEP WHEN I DIE"
Verse 1
L, I, S, A… R,e,n,e,e
I’m not gonna rest until my grave, so every breath that I take,
Is focused on the trademark that I’m destined to make;
And I don’t settle for anything that’s less than being great,
Takin’ advantage of the talents I was blessed with from the gate;
Yeah 50 I can relate….(I can relate) to Get Rich or Die Tryin’, that’s why I’m grindin’ to determine my fate;
My talent’s real it ain’t fake….(this aint a game) just take a look at my face, there’s no debate that I’m earning my place;
I’mma make it in this game and that’s regardless of age,
My weight or my skin color I’ll be rockin’ the stage…; (1)
I’ve been held down too long now I’m unlockin’ the cage,
‘cause I deserve to be here, that’s why I’m bottled with rage;
But I’mma use it (p)ositively, and put my time and energy in, to the God given gifts that live within me;
I know that I’m a star, I don’t have to pretend to be one, but you do that’s why you look at me with envy; unh
I’m on the grind every minute, every second, every hour (is used) to (f)urther my progression;
I used my power to refuse all of yall execs,
That only wanted to help, in return for sex;
But eh eh, that ain’t gone happen, I have too much self respect,
I hold myself in high regard my standards are held in check;
I have too much intellect, my soul has too much pride,
So no I can’t sleep with you, ‘cause I ain’t gonna sleep ‘til I die!;
4x Sleep, sleep, sleep, when I die
4x Sleep, sleep , sleep, sleep sleep when I die
Verse 2
While you’re sittin’ there eatin’ Bon Bons watching TV,
I’m out here grindin’, making sure the world can see me;
Whether it’s, dancing on stage, or out flippin’ CD’s,
You hating on my efforts but deep down you wanna be me;
But th-th-that’s ok, ‘cause I-I-I’mma make it,
You can tr-try to hold me, but I-I-I’mma break it;
My talent, is so powerful that, you can’t mistake it,
The world is in the palm of my hands so I’mma take it;
You need to believe it, visualize it and make it happen,
Cut out the yippin’ and yappin’ and start taking action;
I’m not intentionally bashin’ I’m just displaying passion,
‘cause this is my time to shine so I’mma take advantage;
Every once in a while, I like to go to the club,
Tear the dance floor up and steady cut up a rug;
But when I go to the club, I ain’t flirtin’,
I’m hustlin’, talkin’, grindin’, and networkin’;
My existence has a purpose, by any means necessary,
I will not lose my persistence is legendary;
That’s why I’m going to school and volunteering at the hospital,
To show you that anything is possible; ugh
And I still maintain, my 9 to 5,
Take everything in stride keeping my eyes on the prize;
I surround myself with eagles, ‘cause chickens can’t fly,
So no I won’t sleep, but I will go to sleep when I die;
4x Sleep, sleep, sleep, when I die
4x Sleep, sleep , sleep, sleep sleep when I die
"B.L.U.E."
Verse1
Down in out sad day for me you went away and it was gone my man that made me loose control I feel so lost you left was I wrong
Hook
You don’t love me baby
You don’t care for me
You just want to play
I’ll give you your way just give me my things
U don’t want me baby not me
Verse 2
Blind by love or lust who cares I get my rush from you when you do the things you do your up inside it thrills my soul your so (d)am cold
Hook
You don’t love me baby
You don’t care for me
You just want to play
I’ll give you your way just give me my things
U don’t want me baby not me
Bridge
Oooooo
Listen up for a minute hear me out I often had it bad for this man there was not way out I knew the truth but I was sad I was lonely insecure rather tacky and feeling low I knew what he wanted I must admit negotiating no but I got lost I feel for him what was I thinking he had me paging calling when I needed nothing I was hypnotize weak at his game then I got labeled I was a o and he was my imp so check it let me give you some advice don’t play a game where your not equip be real to yourself then they will be legit true that now I m blue cause he said I don’t want you aint that some shi. Now I’m mad for what he was straight from the get he said shorty its sex can you deal with that mommy I sad sure im a big girl I can handle it now that mans happily married and I’m 9 months pregnant with no father to my kid now I have to explain this
Hook
You don’t love me baby
You don’t care for me
You just want to play
I’ll give you your way just give me my things
U don’t want me baby
not me
"I’m So Crazy"
Verse 1
I’m so gone now, my man he’s not around, he chose to leave me, (why did he choose you for his mate was he confused or was it a game) confusion, commotion, confinement and chaos, closet with secrets, no one would think that (was my love that bad that you had to walk away from) my baby left me for he…
Hook
I’m so, crazy, baby, you left me
Verse 2
Five years of lies why now, did you choose to come out right now, you left me for he, (why did you cheat were you afraid to face the truth were you ashamed)
I’m crying, i'm trying, u dying, you lying were you that, sick of me you had to walk away from (man and woman was not your thing your fling with flesh will turn to pain, im crazy my baby left me for he)
Hook
I'm so crazy baby you left me
Bridge
Fear in my soul that I lost control
Cant turn back I must let it go
Forget about the past he’s so long gone
Get you a man who’s committed to your home
Deep inside it’s a hollow hole
Please let go it’s not your fault
You will get over what must needs to go
Take the kids and love them so
Hook
I’m so crazy cause baby you left me
"Roll"
Verse 1
I’m so dope creative and bold love me hate me I’m just a tease I love to hang up in the mall with my friends Sheryl and Yoli and all we like to fool around and joke will you come and play and then party with me
Hook
If you want to go then say so do you want to play then lets play don’t lead me on I’m about to say jump up, shake your butt, and get crunk with me.
Verse 2
I love to scope your inner circle are you afraid of….I am in control and I wont let go come close to me can…I won’t let go and loose control I rub my hips and feel my tone I love to please you through my song will you come and play and then party with me I will strengthen souls through my positive flow connect with me and don’t let go lets have some fun no stress neg one will you come and play and then party with me
Hook
If you want to go then say so do you want to play then lets play don’t lead me on I’m about to say do you want play and then party with me
Bridge
Roll my hips around, around drop it like its hot it hits the ground watch my lips as I lick I dip my ass will shake on this number one hit
Move your hips and dip move your thighs like this my body rolls with do you want to play and then party with me
Hook
If you want to go then say so do you want to play then let’s play don’t lead me on I’m about to say do you want play and then party with me
"BLOW"
Blow, get out of my face , you bout to get a , emotions rise today , I’m
about to blow this place (go lo/little explosion, bomb in background) )
BLOW step off get back don’t play get out of my way, I'm on a high-speed chase, my life needs to change today.
BLOW step off get back don’t play, I need to make a change, don’t bother me just , or my life will waste away.
Verse 1
when I, see you, my envy arise, so mad from not, taking business in my hands,
time flies so fast, did not know what hit me, hit me, hit me, hit me Anger in
the eyes so there’s Danger on the rise BLAUW! When (when) I think (I
think) of the opportunities let (go - background), I’m on the brink (on the
brink) of exploding so take cover cuz I’m going
BLOW step off get back don’t play get out of my way, I'm on a high-speed chase, my life needs to change today,
BLOW step off get back don’t play, I need to make a change, don’t bother me just , or my life will waste away,
Verse 2
When I see my dreams, I get upset, how dam of me not to be on that set, I’m so
livid with this pathetic mess, oh yes……… [Anger fillin’ up my soul, so I’m
‘bout to let it go] (When) I see, people less talented than me (it
takes its toll), yet it brings, the (best out of me), so I’m gonna take
(control and) (BLOW)
BLOW step off get back (don’t play) get out of (my way), I'm on a high-speed chase, my life needs to change (today),
BLOW step off get back don’t play, I need to make a change, don’t bother me just (sigh), or my life will waste away,
Bridge
I’m (B) Banking on a miracle, (L) Losin’ my sanity, (O) Overlooked consistently, (W) Weathering the tragedy, (B) Beatin’ competition that’s, (L) Lackin’ real quality, (O) Out casted constantly, (W) Why is this reality…
I’m, Blanking, Bruising, Blaming, Behavior, lots of lying, leveraging temptation, overlooked, overworked, overcrowded thoughts in mind, its shaking constantly wavering like a war inside…
I’m wondering have you ever been, fighting voices that is (deep within), you have to change your thoughts, and get from this stage, or you can lose your mind that way!(BLOW)…
"Wonda Woman"
Without the queen there would be no King the mother of all creation (who am I)/
(Backs) I am, I am, I am a Wonda woman, I, I am, I am, I am a wonda woman
Verse 1
Brave as can be and yet so beautiful, there is no other like me, I’m a wonda woman, for all 2 see, I earned everything working honestly, and now I am able to provide for me, I’m a wonda woman, no one like me
(Backs) strong as the wind, but soft as the breeze
Rough as the sea, but yet so elegantly
Calm as the sky, I’m like an eagle that soars
That represents all feminity (they all represent me)
Hook
A mother a sister a daughter a wife
Survivor provider nurturer and giver
A friend a lover the backbone of all brothers
I am all these things cause I’m a wonda woman
Verse 2
Another side that represents she, is a single mother raising her family, she’s a wonda woman, one of a kind, can’t you see this woman working 9 to 5, coming home cooking dinner, kids in bed by 9, she’s a wonda woman, no one can compete,
(Backs) strong as the wind, but soft as the breeze
Rough as the sea, but yet so elegantly
Calm as the sky, I’m like an eagle that soars
That represents all feminity (they all represent she)
Bridge
I, I am, I am, I am a wonda woman (2x)
I love myself, you should love yourself too baby because you are a Wonda Woman
(Backs) strong as the wind, but soft as the breeze
Rough as the sea, but yet so elegantly
Hook throughout end of song with adlib
A mother a sister a daughter a wife
Survivor, provider, nurturer and giver
A friend a lover the backbone of all brothers
I am all these things cause I’m a wonda woman
"PERFECT IMAGE"
Pre-Verse
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing, go ahead talk to ‘em, spit it Girl!)
Hook
Be a big baller on the video screen,
Have fly cars with all the Bling,
I make the winning shot and the girls SCREAM!,
Why can’t I just be me;
Bridge
Constant ridicule of what we do,
But lies always sell, people don’t buy the truth;
If you’re honest you better get a clue,
This world loves make believe please be you;
Constant ridicule of what we do,
But lies always sell people don’t buy the truth;
If you’re honest you better get a clue,
This world loves make believe make sure you be you;
Hook 2X
Be a big baller on the video screen,
Have fly cars with all the Bling,
I make the winning shot and the girls SCREAM!,
Why can’t I just be me;
Pre-Verse
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing)
Baby Bounce to this, oh yeah, Baby Bounce to this (I’m Bouncing, go ahead talk to ‘em, spit it Girl!)
rap verse
$18 Billion dollar industry, on cosmetic surgery,
TV got us brainwashed, spendin’ all our currency;
Runnin’ to the plastic surgeon with so much urgency,
Nip/Tuck got us stuck in a state of emergency;
Tummy tuck, gastric bypass, breast augmentation,
Lip augmentation, a trend sweepin’ all across the nation;
When we look in the mirror, is a facelift all we’re able see?,
Honestly I understand, that was me;
"Lost N U"
Hook
Lost n u, r u feeling blue, don’t u worry, it’ll be okay
(Harmony)Lost n u, lost n u, r u feeling blue, r u feeling blue, don’t you worry, it’ll be okay
Verse1
I can’t sleep, I can't eat, am I blinded by the lost, lost by the love I lost last night, so why did we fight, my head is spinning, woo my knees are weak and I m so cold because I don’t think I can take this pain anymore no……
(Backs)U can go your way and I’ll go mine, find
u another, that will be fine, it does not faze me, by what you do, because little do you know that we are through
U can go your way and I'll go mine, but if u find you another, that won’t be fine, it does faze me, by what u do, because little do u know I’m lost n u
Hook
Lost n u, r u feeling blue, don’t u worry, it’ll be okay
(Harmony) Lost n u, lost n u, r u feeling blue, r u feeling blue, don’t you worry, it’ll be okay
(Backs) w/solo) I’m lost n u (no your not give it some time) I’m feeling blue (dry your eyes get out side) I can’t live my life without you when I’m use to having you (girl u need to get a clue) so whats the advice sister (start focusing on you) but I have sacrificed (that was the problem go and get your hair done, go and get your feet done, go and get your nails done and buy you a dress hun)
Hook
(throughout end of song) Lost n u, r u feeling blue, don’t u worry, it’ll be
okay
Lost n u, lost n you, r u feeling blue, r u feeling blue, don’t you worry, it’ll be okay
"Tangol"
Dose, dose side 2 side swing her low swing her right
(Break it down)
Hook
Bounce your hips in the South
Let my North jump up and down
And my East put
West coast collide and we all get down
Verse1
Argentine tango
It’s sort of like a deja vue
Something comes over you
A way to escape reality
We become a couple, wrapped in one another, connect with my partner forever and ever
Please embrace my body
Follow my body language
Using creativity
Hook
Bounce your hips in the South
Let my North jump up and down
And my East put
West coast collide and we all get down
Verse 2
El Almo tango (the soul of the tango)
Be quick on the balls
of
Keep your arms around me
We face the same direction
Keep
Shift
U start out walking
Naturally moving to its rhythm
Stepping exactly on the beat
(O) 4 this entire dance
(O) work your sexy hands
(O)up my body
(O)our chemistry is so sweet
(You go) I will go
(You lead) my body will follow
(Take my) hand and drift away
(Were so) engulfed in this tango
Hook
Bounce your hips in the South
Let my North jump up and down
And my East put
West coast collide and we all get down
Bridge
(Dose, dose side 2 side, swing her low swing her right)
Tango was not my original forte
It came down through this African way
Dance depicts humanity
With my heart and my bones tend 2 curve the body
It just comes and takes over me, range of motion so heartfelt 4 all to see
My pioneers passed down originality
I’m so bless to have thee my influences were these
It was Dunham, Graham, Hammer, Allen, Hines, Ailey, Calloway, Michael and Janet just to name a few.
They had uniqueness and character too
African dance is were I reign but I love all types of dances all the same
A true dancer at heart can adapt to anything
Now watch me as I do my tango thing
(O) 4 this entire dance
(O) I’ll shake my sexy (laugh)
(O) watch my body
(O) my chemistry is so sweet
(You go) I will go
(You lead) my body will flow
(Take my) hand and drift away
(Were so) engulfed in this tango
Hook
Bounce your hips in the South
Let my North jump up and down
And my East put
West coast collide and we all get down
"Chilly"
Verse 1
I know about your life but my love will never leave you forget about my desires I live my through him and see some say that Im blind but you haven’t given clear signal I give up my time until he says Im leaving what about your goals don’t forget you know I’ll take my chances and so
Hook
What you want to do with me Chilly
Your ways have changed or is it just me
My heart will hurt but you may leave
Verse 2
You said it will work this time so silly I believed you move out and left my town no friends around to see me grieving I gave you so many chances my heart can’t take no more I don’t know if you’ll ever leave me no
I would rather choose to keep you close to me baby I will protect your wrongs if you stand beside me but if you want me to go I leave I love you so and if you want me to go you will have to tell me so baby
3x Lie
3x Cry
3x Eye
3x My
Hook
What you want to do with me Chilly
Your ways have changed or is it just me
My heart will hurt but you may leave
What you want to do what you want to do Chilly
What you want to do what you want to do with me
“MY BOY”
Beginning Pre-Verse
You’re my girl I’m your boy,
The thought of being without you just leaves my world destroyed;
Uhh, I’m your boy you’re my girl,
My real life shining star bringing joy to my world;
You’re my girl I’m your boy,
The thought of being without you just leaves my world destroyed;
Uhh, I’m your boy you’re my girl,
My real life shining star bringing joy to my worl
"MY BOY" Main Verse
From the first time I saw you, you knew that I was onto you,
Starin’, makin’ it apparent that I wanted you;
When I began to talk to you, I was obviously fond of you,
Because we were talkin’ business and I was still coming on to you;
Your vibe is potent boo, and girl you need to know it’s true,
That’s why I’m showin’ you, over this beat that I’m flowin’ to;
We are the chosen few, and it’s true you got me open boo,
I wanna show and prove that I’m willin’ to share my soul wit’ you;
Your heart and soul’s the truth, so I’m this vocal booth,
Expressin’ my confession and how I want to get it on wit’ you;
Let’s engage in a session, give my brain an erection,
Get you sprung, as my tongue shoots game that I’m flexin’;
Your name is the essence of a real Queen Bombshell,
Precious, with skin so Black, Sweet, and Caramel;
Perfection, and there’s no question that you’re a blessin’,
Possessing quality, you are my Number 1 selection; [And that’s real]
Girl I Love it when you stop, move dip,
I’m so attracted to the groove in your hips;
That sweet soft skin and them Beautiful lips,
I have to let you know through the Music I spit;
That I Love it when you stop, move dip,
I’m so attracted to the groove in your hips;
That sweet soft skin and them Beautiful lips,
I have to let you know through the Music I spit; [Baby Girl!]
"Did U Forget Me "
(Ooo, nooo, oooo)
Verse 1
O, I, I, I don’t know but why it seems that you have forgotten me
I left the ones I love with hope and faith that fame would come to me
(Backs) nothing good comes fast Lee keep your faith and your hope in me will carry u to a place don’t give up know your so close 2 the stars listen to me don’t ignore thee
I am real I'm the spirit and they all will see I heard your cry and your plead and even beg to me you’ll see greater things than what others achieved I am the king stay with me
Hook
Oh in my heart I always kneel to you, for all my dreams in my heart that I hope come true but often at a time in my life I wondered. (Lead –Did you forget me)
Oh in my soul I know your word is true for all my goals and my plans that I hope come through but often at a time in my life I pondered. (He will always be there for you)
Verse 2
I’m I’m I’m so lost I work so -am hard but they don’t seem to appreciate me. What, what is wrong I’m talented and all and this career feels right like destiny
(Backs) your talent was the reason that they looked away if your better they will fear that you’ll take their place
Raise your voice to the clouds and continue to say (I am yours use me)
In his word he’ll never leave you nor forsake u, nor hurt u, just love him just abide him he is the king worship thee
Hook
Oh in my heart I always kneel to you, for all my dreams in my heart that I hope come true but often at a time in my life I wondered. (Lead –Did you forget me)
Oh in my soul I know your word is true for all my goals and my plans that I hope come through but often at a time in my life I pondered. (He will always be there for you)
Ooo…….did u overlook me?
No……..my word is bond don’t question me!
Testimony-December 16, 2000 I remember that pain like it was yesterday, I was upset hurt frustrated and I really needed someone to talk to. I called my mom and let her know the thoughts that were racing through my mind, she immediately directed me to the word of GOD and then we prayed Hallelujah.
From that point on there was no more confusion you see I understand that every door that open for me was meant to open for me and every door that closed, it closed purposely, see he never gave up on me my doubts and fear were from another entity but lets not give that evil entity to much victory, moving on. See and after that day I continue to press and persevere you see I can see my dreams the picture is all so clear.